Breaking Down

Ok - not blogged for a couple of days! had therapy! had lots happening this week - O and yes the case of the disappearing cats! Yesterday/today/ as in saturday 2 of my 4 cats went missing for 30hours! i have been distraught most of the day and spent alot of it crying. Poor Carol!!! she is my saviour and I do not know what I would do without her! So much entered our heads about what had happened to them as in Harlow its been very cold as of late, and today it started snowing! not just flurrying but full-blown snowing!

 Last time it snowed this bad was xmas 2010 - the year of our flood. I think that would call for a blog all of its own - Remind me to go back to that story! Of course we have been worried - and even Carol couldn't hide it from me. My mood of late has been low and the cats just missing - not 1 but 2 of them had me in hysterics and I spent most of the day searching/calling and in bed as I hadn't slept - AGAIN! Thank you to Lesley and Bev for an evening of distraction! However at midnight the 2 buggers turned up! Apologise for language but Carol went into the bedroom and found Guiness and Pepsi stuck under the bed - where they had been all day whilst we had been out in cold weather searching and designing missing posters (which thankfully I hadn't finished).It was the same bed where I been crying and wondering where on earth they could be! They hadn't miaowed once! or I hadn't heard them! Carol and I weren't sure whether to shout or cuddle them! - We cuddled them and fed them!

and treated all of them of course! They have been so full of beans all evening and I definately didn't let them out! They can play in the snow in the morning! - I have a wnderful picture of pawprints in snow which i must share with you as its one of my favs wen Pepsi and Guiness were babies and Kola was - well Kola!

I love this picture!

I think I need to learn how to deal with stress better! It seems that any stressful situation seems to have me at crisis point! This week has been very stressful and the morphine and other medication seems to be wearing me down emotionally, but then again so does the pain in my back and knees.

I just wish there was a magic wand out there which could make me feel whole and alive again.

much love xxx

Lou x